You must be wondering why I chose that title. Well, I'm actually want to share my frustrations in my quest to be a perfect housewife. (Is a perfect housewife really exist?).
Since I came to New Zealand, I started to be a housewife, a stay-at home-mum, a chef(in our kitchen), and a cleaner. I didn't really feel happy to embrace my new roles but I didn't have any other choice. (I still have no other choice until now but I will when we go back to Malaysia).
Unlike Martha who is so talented and has the ability to cook perfect meals, decorate the whole house,make different kinds of crafts and the list can go on and on, I'm quite ordinary. I know how to cook but I'm not really good in presenting the food. I know how to make some crafts by getting some ideas from magazines or internet but the crafts didn't really turn out the way it should be. I like to decorate my house but since we are still renting this house, I don't really want to decorate it so much.
I always waiting for some kind of recognition from my family members for what I've done. But my hubby thinks that it's quite absurd to praise me everytime I've cook his favourite dish, done something nice to our house and other things. My daughters are still small to understand about praising. I don't know why I need some reassurance for my work. Maybe it's the same feeling you have when you have done a good job at work. You need your boss to recognize your good work.
Interestingly, now the more I watch Desperate Housewives, the more I tend to compare myself to them. I want to like Bree but I don't want to have the same desperations like her. I also can relate myself to Lynette, as she was a career woman before she had her children. They have become desperate when their surrounding forced them to change their personalities. However, I don't want to be as desperate as them because I don't want to be a bad Muslim. (hmmmmmmm I think I am deviating myself a bit here).
What I can do now is trying harder as I think nobody is perfect.At least, I have the drive to try and try until I succeed. I hope that it won't be too long from now before I can go back to work.